It's funny. For the past 6 1/2 months, I was scared that everything you said was true, that when you go out with other guys, it would surely be the end. Then after a long night of not knowing what you were up to or a short time period where you're with someone else, hanging out, you would get on me for being worried. You would ask me "would I really do that to you?"
Yea you would. Because for once I finally realized that you wouldn't hurt me and that you wouldn't betray me. Well like all the other times where I doubted you, I was wrong. You did. You are a hypocrite. You never trust me. You always accuse me of doing the bull shit you have had done to you in the past. You make me seem like the bad guy, the guy who would break your heart because he didn't care. Well you are wrong. You are the only thing that truly matters to me and I would never let anything get in between that.
It's so ironic too. I trusted you. I surely thought that when he came over, you would be loyal to me. You would know where your heart truly is. But no it wasn't. Your heart wasn't there. It walked out on me and went to him for the moment. How do I know this was the only time? I don't! I'm hurt. You hurt me. Your favorite saying is "once a cheater, always a cheater," yet "it doesn't matter what happened in your past because I want you in my present and in my future." Hmmm a bit hypocritical huh? I sure think so.
What scares me even more is you know I will forgive you because I truly will. I am forgiving you but will you take this mistake and let it go or will it actually change you? If you love me like you say you do, then you will be scared out of your mind to lose me. I'm calling you out.
I love you. Do you love me?
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