I miss the sound of your voice....

After we hung up, I wasn't tired so I watched yesterday's episode of House (it was good by da way). As I was watching it, I looked at my phone and noticed that 10 minutes prior, you called and left an amazing voicemail. After we hung up, I held down the 1 key and listened to your message from Monday and I cried when you said you missed the sound of my voice. I then sucked it up and walked back into the room, asked Matt if he was going to bed soon (he said no) so I put House on.

After hearing that message, I thought of the old cliche saying, "you don't appreciate something until you don't have it anymore." I have always appreciated your love and how much you do love me don't get me wrong, but it hit me so hard. You knew I was upset and I cried twice on the phone, especially because you were so heartbroken but I lost it when we hung up.

There isn't much anymore that makes me happy. Sure I have music and the Flyers are winning and I'm writing for the paper and baseball is around the corner and I'm satisfied with all of that but I'm not truly happy unless I talk to you and hear your voice.

I'm honestly lost with out you. A day without you is like a day without breathing. Every breath I take is just another moment to love you. Without being able to tell you that hurts far worse than the pain of a broken bone or torn ligament.

I miss you so much and I appreciate you more as each breath is breathed. I love you so much, Giovanna. Forever and ever and a day. This will all work itself out in the end.

"I miss the sound of your voice
I miss the rush of your skin
I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in..."

Come one get higher, baby : ) I'm always here. I love you <3