I can't sleep

I simply can't sleep. I have hurt you and I don't know how I did it. You think I leave you every night but I truly don't. It's as simple as if we were laying in bed together and I turned to you, repeating the same simple routine we go through at night: "Goodnight, I love you, *kiss*, bye..."

I'm simply not leaving, baby. I promise. I can't lay there on the couch and let my phone die and I can't lay in my bed in my room because my room mate is already sleeping. I do the only thing I can do and that's repeat the same ritual every night.

See, I can't sleep if I don't hear you say good night or I love you. It just doesn't feel complete. Would we honestly end every night like that? Just laying in bed and staring at each other to wait for each other to fall asleep? No. We would look into each other's eyes and say: "Goodnight, I love you, *kiss*, bye."

If I travel all my life
And I never get to stop and settle down
Long as I have you by my side
There's a roof above and good walls all around
You're my castle, you're my cabin and my instant pleasure dome
I need you in my house 'cause you're my home.
-Billy Joel

Oh I sleep just to dream her
I beg the night just to see her
That my only love should be her
Just to lie in her arms
-Dave Matthews

'Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
-Duncan Sheik

'Cause I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touchin' me
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind
-J. Holiday