What I'm Not and Who I Am

I'm not a cheater... I just made the mistake once of hurting someone. I am as true as the sun that shines on us.

I'm not materialistic... All I will ever want is your love and your love only. You make me happy and nothing else.

I'm not greedy... I don't need money to make me happy. I don't care what someone wants to give me.

I'm not a liar... I feel no need in deceiving you to make you believe I love you when I don't. Everything I say and do is true.

I don't need anyone else... No girl will ever be as amazing as you. You, Giovanna, are the greatest thing to ever happen to me and I am truly grateful to have a wonderful girl like you.

I'm not going anywhere... I'm here to stay.
I love you, forever and ever and a day

Top 10 best fans in sports

So I was doing a bit of thinking and decided I'd make s sports post. Justin took over We Hate To Lose by himself so if I want to write about sports, it will have to be here. So I had an idea. I will post the Top 10 best fans in all four major sports (MLB, NBA, NFL, NHL) today and will then do the 10 Worst fans and 10 biggest bandwagons (and boy will I have fun with the latter 2). So here we go:

1) Pittsburgh Steelers - Tradition and Excellence are the 2 words i associate with this franchise and their fan base. They not only bleed the gold and black where ever they go but they do it with the utmost respect for everybody else. When I think of Steelers fans, I think of the ambassadors to all of sports fans. if you want to know what it's like to love a team, know a Steelers fan. Oh and 2 words: Terrible Towel.

2) Montreal Canadiens - They may possibly be the most annoying human beings on the face of the earth but they live and die with their team. They are like soccer hooligans, but not as dangerous because they're French Canadian. They absolutely took advantage of the flawed All Star voting system, voting in 4 starters from their team (only one truly deserved it).

3) Detroit Red Wings - Does your team throw an octopus on the ice when Marian Hossa nets a hat trick? Hell no. That is the coolest tradition in all of sports. But besides the octopus, they are the reason Detroit is dubbed "Hockey Town."

4) New York Yankees - They think they are better than you. Well in the baseball world they are. They are also the most tortured in the past 10 years. The Yankees give them a team that should win each year and they still find ways to break their hearts. Yea I know they have 26 rings and I enjoy watching them lose but no fan base should be subject to a shitty front office and the negative news surrounding Alex Rodriguez.

5) Boston Red Sox - After 86 years of the Curse, losing, and Buckner, the Sox fans were finally treated with a World Series win in 2004 and an encore in 2007. If you have seen Fever Pitch, the scene where there are people in the streets all decked in their gear and have stands set up and what not is all true. They treat every home game as if it was football Sunday. Fenway is one of the hardest tickets to get your hands on in all of sports as well because their fans grab them up before you can say "Bahston."

6) Green Bay Packers - The Cheeseheads literally get down on their knees and worship Brett Favre. He is the Jesus of the little city in Wisconsin. And I give a lot of credit to a fan base that will go to games where it's colder in Green Bay in September than it is anywhere else in January.

7) Boston Celtics - The Yankees of basketball, these fans have all the love in the world for their team. It was tough leaving the Boston Bruins out of the top 10 (and 15) because of Boston's true love for all of sports. It carries over to the richest franchise in Beantown. The fans enjoyed seeing their team be on top again last year and will have to get through the Lakers to enjoy success again. Boston/LA is to Boston/NY in baseball and Philly/Dallas in football.

8) Cleveland Browns - The Dawg Pound is one of the most popular fan area in sports. They sit behind the end zone and they will harass the opponents. Chad Johnson of the Bengals was brave enough to leap into the pound after he scored and got clawed and beer thrown all over him. Gotta love the Dog-faced Gremlins.

9) Philadelphia Eagles - E.A.G.L.E.S. Eagles! I am a proud member of this fan base and I will always be. We are tortured beyond belief but we will still give money to the organization to not spend it. Hey Lurie, thanks for resigning Brian Dawkins. Oh wait, you didn't. We are probably dubbed the most intimidating fans in football and probably sports. We will chew you, your family, children, mother, father, and dog out to let you know your team sucks and if you think otherwise we will kick your ass.

10) New York Rangers - These fans are the most intimidating in the Atlantic Division, rivaling the Flyers. They don't welcome guests and they live and die for there team. Madison Square Garden is the greatest arena in America and it's one place to not wear a Flyers, Devils, Penguins, or Islanders jersey. 4 championships as an original 6 team are numbers you would expect from a team with an OK fan base but their fans will not give up on their team, no matter what.

Honerable Mentions:

Oakland Raiders - spiked shoulder pads

Los Angeles Lakers - the other NBA traditions

Philadelphia Flyers - it's Philly

Chicago Cubs - only the Cubs fans will support a team that has lost 100 straight years

New York Giants - very loyal fans even when their team blew from 2001-2006

I can't sleep

I simply can't sleep. I have hurt you and I don't know how I did it. You think I leave you every night but I truly don't. It's as simple as if we were laying in bed together and I turned to you, repeating the same simple routine we go through at night: "Goodnight, I love you, *kiss*, bye..."

I'm simply not leaving, baby. I promise. I can't lay there on the couch and let my phone die and I can't lay in my bed in my room because my room mate is already sleeping. I do the only thing I can do and that's repeat the same ritual every night.

See, I can't sleep if I don't hear you say good night or I love you. It just doesn't feel complete. Would we honestly end every night like that? Just laying in bed and staring at each other to wait for each other to fall asleep? No. We would look into each other's eyes and say: "Goodnight, I love you, *kiss*, bye."

If I travel all my life
And I never get to stop and settle down
Long as I have you by my side
There's a roof above and good walls all around
You're my castle, you're my cabin and my instant pleasure dome
I need you in my house 'cause you're my home.
-Billy Joel

Oh I sleep just to dream her
I beg the night just to see her
That my only love should be her
Just to lie in her arms
-Dave Matthews

'Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
-Duncan Sheik

'Cause I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touchin' me
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind
-J. Holiday

Irony, hyprocrisy, and other bullshit

It's funny. For the past 6 1/2 months, I was scared that everything you said was true, that when you go out with other guys, it would surely be the end. Then after a long night of not knowing what you were up to or a short time period where you're with someone else, hanging out, you would get on me for being worried. You would ask me "would I really do that to you?"

Yea you would. Because for once I finally realized that you wouldn't hurt me and that you wouldn't betray me. Well like all the other times where I doubted you, I was wrong. You did. You are a hypocrite. You never trust me. You always accuse me of doing the bull shit you have had done to you in the past. You make me seem like the bad guy, the guy who would break your heart because he didn't care. Well you are wrong. You are the only thing that truly matters to me and I would never let anything get in between that.

It's so ironic too. I trusted you. I surely thought that when he came over, you would be loyal to me. You would know where your heart truly is. But no it wasn't. Your heart wasn't there. It walked out on me and went to him for the moment. How do I know this was the only time? I don't! I'm hurt. You hurt me. Your favorite saying is "once a cheater, always a cheater," yet "it doesn't matter what happened in your past because I want you in my present and in my future." Hmmm a bit hypocritical huh? I sure think so.

What scares me even more is you know I will forgive you because I truly will. I am forgiving you but will you take this mistake and let it go or will it actually change you? If you love me like you say you do, then you will be scared out of your mind to lose me. I'm calling you out.

I love you. Do you love me?