That Particular Moment...

You ever just listen to a song or a version of a song and it just makes you stop and think? Has it ever really made you feel like you missed someone so much and they are there with you while you are listening to that song? I have had that moment three times in the past year. It's not just an emotional climax of a song but a feeling that completely over comes you.

When I lost my grandmother back in April, the first thing I did was put on Lie In Our Graves by DMB. The reprise hit me so fucking hard but it let me realize that my grandmother spent her living days well. As me and my dad (it was his mother) were driving the next day after the funeral, I put my iPod in on his car and put on LIOG and told him to listen. That was one of the moments that got him into DMB casually.

That was my first moment. The second was N2 in Camden (less than 2 months since her death). They played Granny 3rd in the show and I was so happy to hear it because that was the other song that reminded me of her. Later in the show, they played LIOG. I was upset they didn't do the reprise but during that solo by Boyd, I cried. Not teared up but fuckin' cried. It was the best solo of his I have ever heard in any song in my honest opinion. It was so melodic and pure music. It wasn't like one of his fiddle solos. It had so much energy behind it that it felt like he was playing it for her.

The third happened the other day. I know in my previous post I wrote about LT14 and how much I miss LeRoi Moore. Well that feeling of missing him kinda hit again. It wasn't even during a song he played on. The show was 8/29/08 at the Gorge. Roi had died 10 days prior to this show. The band was inbetween songs and the crowd just went nuts, throwing glow sticks on the stage which obviously the band was overcome with emotion, they then went in #41, a song Dave claimed Roi HATED. It was during the second refrain where Dave sings "I wanted to play, I wanted to love you" that it was known that he was crying through the song. The video is on Youtube and you can see the pain in his face.

I know I have an obsession with DMB music. It's the music that drives me though. It's so unconventional but emotional, kinda like me. I'm not perfect and never will I be. That's what this music does for me. It helps me through my tough times too. It's my medicine and I don't care what other people think of my listening habits. DMB's music has become a major part of my life.